Dr Jill McIlraith
As a fifth year medical student at University of Witwatersrand, Johannesburg, I was one of the first on the scene when a double-decker bus carrying 72 high school students went off the causeway of a small suburban dam in March 1985. 42 children drowned that afternoon.
I lived opposite the Westdene Dam and was at home that Wednesday afternoon, having been up late the night before doing my emergency medicine attachment at Johannesburg Hospital’s Casualty Department. Hearing a woman yelling for help, I went outside to see a handful of people in the water, some clambering onto the just-submerged roof of a bus.
By the time I got to the dam wall a few minutes later, several passers-by had started to pull children out of the water, dropping them on the road before going back for others. The first ambulance arrived within six minutes and immediately called for back-up. But for the first critical ten minutes there were only two or three of us able to do CPR with dozens of blue, unconscious children at our feet. Within twenty minutes numerous fire trucks, police and ambulances had arrived, but by then we had dozens of dead children.
At one point I stood up and looked at twelve teenagers lying on the tarmac around me and thought: How do I decide who to do CPR on and who to leave? How long do I try on each person before going to the next?
I had tried to resuscitate six children by the time help arrived but they all looked the same in their school uniforms. In the chaos that followed, I never learned which ones lived and which ones didn’t. Of all the people I worked on that day, the only one that I know for certain survived turned out to be the bus driver – a Coloured man, William Horne. His passengers had been white Afrikaner school children. In mid-1980s South Africa, this added another whole dimension to an already hugely traumatic event. Conspiracy theories and allegations – and death threats to the driver – came fast and furious in the next few weeks.
The day after the disaster, I went back to my emergency department attachment, arriving an hour late, not having slept much with the events of the previous afternoon churning through my head: constant visions of dead, pale and perfectly unmarked teenagers lying at my feet in the Highveld autumn sun.
While my fellow medical students were supportive (and very grateful that it hadn’t been them), my most vivid memory of that morning was the scathing comments from the emergency department consultants as to how incompetent those first on the scene had been and how they would have done much better.
I felt battered and raw and what I needed as a young doctor in training was a more practical approach. Were there any criteria I could have applied to decide who to do CPR on and who not? How long should I have kept going on one child when others where being dragged out of the water and dumped next to me? What would they have done differently? But they were too full of their own self-importance to pay attention to the needs of a fifth year medical student. In retrospect, perhaps their bluster was part of the impotence everyone felt over the death of 42 children.
Intellectually I could see that there was probably little that would have made a difference. The number of children involved and a very small critical window period were the main determinants of the mortality rate from the moment the bus left the road.
After that first day and the hostile, critical comments from senior colleagues I did not talk about it again at medical school.
In the aftermath of the disaster, with allegations flying that the bus driver had been drunk, I had made a statement to the police. The bus driver had vomited while I was doing CPR and I had got a good mouthful of his recent lunch – cheese sandwiches with no taste or smell of alcohol – before rolling him onto his side to clear his airway. Blood alcohol and toxicology tests later confirmed this.
A year later, while on my rural attachment in the Eastern Transvaal as a trainee intern, I was summonsed to appear in the Johannesburg High Court. William Horne, the bus driver, was facing 42 counts of manslaughter.
With a week of my rural block to go, I handed over my part of the project and drove the five hours back to Johannesburg on my own. I dreaded recounting the events of that day to a court packed with parents and school friends of the dead teenagers. Many had already made it clear that they resented the bus driver’s survival.
I spent the next two days sitting alone outside the courtroom, waiting to be called. After giving evidence (the judge thanked me for my efforts at the scene, one of the few people to do so), I phoned my medical school supervisor. Medical School wanted me to return to the rural hospital for the final three days of the attachment. I refused. I said I needed some time out and that I intended to hibernate at home for three days. They backed down eventually and did give me credit for the attachment. No one asked if I needed to talk through what had happened on a medical level or an emotional level.
After a three week trial, the bus driver was acquitted of all charges. None of the evidence, including my tuppence worth, shed much light on what had caused the bus to drive off the causeway road. Horne himself had no recollection of the event, or the weeks that followed when he was in hospital with aspiration pneumonia (those cheese sandwiches again) and the several broken ribs I had given him.
None of the surviving children could shed any light on the events either. In the absence of evidence to the contrary, the judge concluded that the bus driver had had a blackout.
The only positive things to come out of the whole, horrible saga was that Johannesburg rewrote its disaster management plan to include mass drowning along with mine disasters, bombs, fires and airplane disasters. They also established a joint police and fire department dive team which had previously been thought a luxury in an inland city with no big rivers or lakes, just private swimming pools and a handful of small, suburban dams. Small they may have been, but just big enough and deep enough to cover a double-decker school bus.
Dr Jill McIlraith is a general practitioner who wanted to be policewoman or a vet, instead worked as journalist and then went to medical school as a mature student. Writing and animals continue to be a source of comfort and sanity.
This article was previously published, in an abbreviated form, in the BMJ journal Medical Humanities 2008; 34; 47-52.
Kim Pasley
That sounds horrific. The abuse of medical students by neglect.
Claudia
Dearest Jill
Here I am in Australia, 35 years after the tragic incident. My 14 yr old son was just shouting out some survival tips for when you’re drowning in a car from the other room (which he had seen on Tik-Tok of all places). This immediately made me think of the Westdene school bus tragedy which I Googled and came across your article, among others.
I lived in Johannesburg too, more out Kensington way, and would have been my son’s age when this happened. I saw it on the news that evening and was so sad to find out that so many children had died. I too lived next to the same dam in my later years whilst studying at RAU.
I just wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart for the brave work you did and I am sorry humanity let you down that day and in the months or years to follow. I can’t even try to imagine how much pain and sadness you’ve been through. If I could, I would lean over right now and give you a long hug.
Thank you, Jill. May you be blessed.
Much kindness, Claudia
Jill McIlraith
Dear Claudia,
Thank you for your kind words and the hug. It took me many years before I could write about this, but I can’t pretend that it doesn’t still haunt me. Looking back, it was one of the factors in our decision to leave So Africa in 1987 and relocate to NZ.
One’s heart will always belong to Africa but it does have a way of stomping on it hard.
I hope you and your family stay safe and thrive in Aussie during this challenging year. My daughter is a vet n Melbourne but tells us that he is coming back to NZ next year, which we would really like.
Kind Regards
Jill McIlraith
Kind regards
Gerald Rubin
Funny, a post on Facebook about Leyland Routemaster busses triggered memories of the Westdene disaster.
Our family had been gone from South Africa a few years when this tragedy happened, but my grandmother in Glenhazel kept us informed with details about the tragedy. I remember she worried whether or not the families, many of them struggling working-class residents of Triomf, would be able to afford proper burial expenses for their children and co-ordinated with other members of her synagogue to provide assistance where needed.
The attitudes of the public reminded me of why my American mother, fed up with South Africa, packed her six children back to the United States. The arrogant attitudes of the emergency team were not surprising. The racist scapegoating of the bus driver was not surprising, though it likely would have happened if he were white. The hostile attitudes of your colleagues was not surprising. The fact that a policeman, who risked his own life to save the lives of children, was not commended for its efforts, but was instead reprimanded for being seen in public in his underpants… was not surprising. These were all proof that Calvinistic dogma was more important to South African culture than the gravity of the grief felt by the families who lost their children, including several families who lost more than one child that afternoon.
When I get “homesick” for Cape Town, I remind myself of how disturbing the South African mindset can be, and the sentiment dissipates. I go back “home” from time to time to visit friends and family, and things don’t seem as bad as in the past, but there’s still that odd sense of distant “cold” that paradoxically co-exists with the welcoming warmth and hospitality of many South Africans.
I commend you not only for efforts that day, but your resilience since and your reconciliation with your own conscience. Thank you for sharing your story with us.
Cheers,
Jay Rubin
Jill McIlraith
Thank Jay, for your comments and kind words. It is salutary to hear how the ripples from this tragic event continue so long afterwards and spread so face.
I too have very complex feeling towards So Africa( including guilt for leaving) and sadness about not seeing my sisters in Natal and Cape Town very often, but I always had the feeling that if I stayed I would have either become a bomb-throwing revolutionary or a childless cynic – I could not bear to bring up a child there. New Zealand’s acceptance and gentleness has bee healing and an easier place to which I commit my skills and energies.